It's funny, life's way of turning things around for you.

So today I found out that it was the people who I thought I could trust the most that were the one's behind my whole screen name crisis. It ends up they all hate me or something like that. I guess I just expected different things out of friends than they offer.

(Lostprophets - Last Train)

I began this post on September 14th. But then I decided that I should clear my head before I fully address this situation that I have been thrown into.

I guess that I had always thought I was one of them. Ya know... The Klan... Devin, Tom, Tony, Mike, Ben, Dennis. It was always us. I thought. But now they seemed to have had to push me out. Which is fine. I have other friends... I'll miss the good times in the basement. But then again... Paul's got a basement, too.

It also seems that this is happening for a reason. You see, upon my decision to attend the College of DuPage, my parents gave me the change to make the money I will be spending on tuition and books back if I get a B average or higher. This whole losing a group of friends thing has allowed me to completely focus on studying on the weekdays. If I were still hanging out with them (being all my age or older, they would have the ability to go out on weekdays) I would be going out on weekdays. But since now all my local friends are in high school. I am forced to wait until the weekend for any sort of social gatherings... which is, oddly enough, fine with me.

I guess I'd have been a little more forgiving towards all of them had they not lied to me and kept me believing that it was someone who has no access to Tony's basement who had done this shit to my screen name. But no, Mike offered words of consolation. Tom told me, "You just don't do that kind of shit to people." Tony told me, "No one who hangs out in this basement has done this."

In fact. They probably weren't in the basement at all. But is that really even a valid point anymore? No. It has become apparent that bull shit like this follows you everywhere. I used to call it high school bull shit... it's not that at all. It's live bull shit. It happens at work, it happens online, it happens at school, it happens at home, and you can't get away from it. It's one thing to say that life sucks. I'm not saying that at all. I'm more or less saying life sucks a good percentage of the time. And you need to try and find good in every situation. Even if that good leads to a little more studying on your part. :-)

To the Klan: You guys have been a big part of my life and my high school career whether I like it or not. I wouldn't like music from Radiohead or Beck if it wasn't for Mike. I would have never drummed in black lights or downhill bob-sledded if it wasn't for Devin. Without Tom, I would have never stood 2 and a half feet away from a moving train. Dennis, I have probably had some of my best conversations in a car with you. Ben. What can I say. Ninja Turtles and Ghostbusters.

--I'm still gonna try and hang out with Tony, because he's been my friend since pre-school, and I like him. I like Dennis still, too.--

I will never forget some of the shit we've done. Because it has been fun. But there comes a time when you have to leave childish things behind. I hope you guys come to that time before you're stuck being a kid in an adult world, because that would be unfortunate.