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Soybella753: omg i just did a really cool thing on my ball thing
Soybella753: shit it kinda hurts
Soybella753: but so worth it
Soybella753: i can make myself in a ball like doing a backbend and grabbing my ankles.. yay.. see i need to go out tonight

HERE IT IS... THE FINAL ANSWER

I figured it out. My problem. Well, at least one of them. Here goes.

When talking to a specific girl online, I find that since I generally have time to collect all of my thoughts before writing something to her, I have this uncanny (at least I think/hope so) ability to be funny, confident, flirtatious, etc. But as soon as I get face to face with her, or any girl for that matter, I fall apart and suck at everything. I don't know why this is, but it sucks regardless. I'm sure this is something that every guy finds they can do in the online world as opposed to the real world. But shit, man. It just sucks.

The other problem is that I don't really know how to fix this problem to the point where I'm top of the line on both regards (for me, anyways). If that means thinking every word through before I say them, that leads to lots of pauses in real life conversation. Then I'd just look like a dumbass.

It's definitly one of those situations where I unknowingly made the mistake of become friends with a girl that I really liked without showing interest in that respect. On the other hand, isn't that what you're fucking supposed to do? I don't know. I'm not really asking for advice, because I know that all people will tell me is to calm down and act natural, but that doesn't fucking work. Everyone's always telling me to not let it get to me, or not to care. It does get to me, I do care. Call me a complainer, but I'm 19 years old, and I've never actually had any sort of relationship. The only one I have had doesn't count, because it was real and local for about six days, and then became a long distance BS relationship that was all in my head. Bottom line, I cared for her twenty or so times more than she cared for me. (Read back about 8 months, you'll find it.)

Okay, I'm done complaining about how I can't get girls. I'll just keep thinking what I always am told to think about the situation. College (REAL COLLEGE, NOT COD) will be better.

Take care of yourself by not thinking too much.

Ke\/in.

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EMO QUOTE TIME

So I recently went out and bought "Let it Enfold You" by Senses Fail, which is an excellent album. The next day, the self titled debut from Straylight Run was given to me because he who originally owned it didn't want it. It's actually quite good, even if I was phunned out (if you know me, you know what that means, if not, ask) when I listened to it.

Since I was so impressed with Straylight Run, the band that rose from the ashes of Taking Back Sunday, I will now quote two of their songs which had some of the most moving lyrics (awwww, Kevin's getting all mushy on us...) I have ever heard.

so, sing me something soft,
sad and delicate.
or loud and out of key,
sing me anything.
Straylight Run - Existentialism on Prom Night (Most insane name for a song... EVER.)

...and...

so if you made it,
just be glad that you did and stay there.
if you ever feel loved or needed,
remember that you're one of the lucky ones.
Straylight Run - The Perfect Ending

Thus concludes EMO lyric day. I'm gonna go listen to Pantera and clense my soul. Actually, I'm still feeling EMO, so I suppose I'll just pop Straylight Run in and fall asleep.

Good Night.

Ke\/in

PS: Ms. Cain, if you read this anytime Thursday, call me at home, regarding Friday.

...English... blegh.

So, I'm sitting here in the lab for my English 102 Honors class. I currently have nothing to do. Why? Because I love floppy disks that love to lose my shit, that's why. I have tried this piece of shit disk in just about every computer surrounding me, and for some reason, these things like to think that it's un-formatted.

God bless technology.

Last week I got really sick and missed two days of school, that sucked. This week Chris came home for some leave before he's deployed to probably the Mediterranean Sea. Good times, we went and saw Constantine which was actually pretty damn good. It kinda made me feel like Catholicism is finally trying to make a comeback.

I am hungry, so I'm probably gonna go get a bowl of cheese broccoli soup, mmmmmmmm mmm. Alright, good bye for now. Bill Jagnow, Rick Bach, and Mike Else would greatly profit spiritually from posting to their blogs, and so would I.

Piece.

Ke\/in